The Happiness Choice

Whilst I agree that everyone is different and therefore one rule does not necessarily apply to all, there does come a point where we have to choose if we want to continue allowing sadness in any form to be the dominant feeling of our lives.

If is so powerful and whilst it can inspire us to do great things it can also become a seductive cloak that dominates the rest of our lives. 

Sadness is sadness if something takes away your joy it can not be measured. When we lose someone/something that we Love dearly there comes a point where our sadness can turn into a habit we get use to it. 

This is not natural.

Instead of foucsing our attention on the joy we felt with/for the one we Love we remember our own sorrow instead. This does not honour the fact that we were blessed to have shared our lives with someone who brought us Joy and whom we Loved. 

We live in a western world that constantly reports negativity as news but it doesn't celebrate or encourage joy and fellowship. 

Therefore, happiness requires effort we have to learn to change our perception of our sadness in order to see it as a feeling that can be harnessed for transformation and good. 

Choose happiness because it feels good.

Lots of Love. xxx

Thank you Kleenex!

Having a big clear out, I found some notes, letters and poems that I'd written to and about an ex I THOUGHT I was in Love with. It was weird reading them! At the time I was so convinced in my head that it was Love that I was feeling. I told my heart that I Love this man! My poor heart knew the truth but didn't stand a chance against such mental illness!!! My Ego and my mind told my entire being that I was in Love and I went blindly along with it. The mental torture, the crippling pain in my chest that had me curled up in bed in floods of tears, the self destruction, the waiting by the phone that never rang, the dates that never happened, the disrespect, the abandonment, the infinite sadness and the loneliness that came with being in the relationship because someone was better than no one and this was Love right? I know it's Love because only Love can hurt sooo much right? That's what the songs say, that's what the movies show, that's what I've learnt. This hell is heaven, this hell is Love! It's Love Jenna-Lee! It's Love! 


This daily agony that I'm smiling through is the fire of Love, I know it is! I'll just have another glass of wine and a cigarette to take the edge off. Thank you Kleenex for being here! 


I'm so in Love.


BUT


If it wasn't for X, Y and Z I could be HAPPY!! If he just did A, B and C he could work his shit out, if I suppressed L, M and N deep inside he'd trust me more. If I stopped being me and and if we promised to change E, F and G about ourselves everything would work out Disney style. YAY!


I was prepared to rearrange the entire alphabet to accommodate this doomed, incompatible relationship into my life to prove to the world, myself and him that I Loved him, that I wasn't a romantic disaster zone. I could do it!!! Happy ever after with this man was my birthright. I will make it work!


 It was crazy! 


What was I thinking? 


Where was my integrity, honesty, truth? Where was my Heart in all of this? On vacation or just held hostage by my Ego's insanity? 


"I need him!" I cried into another glass of Sauvignon Blanc.  "No Jenna you actually NEED air, water and shelter" said my higher self but I quickly hog tied that bitch up and locked her in the cellar of my mind. 


Had my self esteem been soooo low? Had I honestly felt so little Love for myself that I was prepared to force a square peg through a round hole just to feel a part of something that ultimately only I could truly fulfill in myself? Was I so afraid that I was not worthy of Unconditional Love that I was willing to settle for something so far from the letter L to even begin to call it Love was a joke!


It's amazing what we are willing to settle for, what we are willing to put up with in the name of Love. We con ourselves into believing that another person completes us or another person will change for us because we wish it to be so "If you Love me you'd do this...!" Why won't you behave the way I want you to? Why are you treating me so badly? Why don't you care? Why are YOU being YOU! So many why's! Your focus is entirely on them when really Love is bliss! Love doesn't ask questions or make demands. Love accepts and accommodates another person WITHOUT compromising you at the same time! If you have to force, wish or hope for Love to conform then my friends it is not Unconditional Love and I have the burning letters to prove it!

The Return of The Gemini!

Hello one and all, friends :-)


It's been sooooo long since I've written a post!


So much has happened!!! I've been on such an incredible journey of self discovery that it will take time for me to catch up with myself  and blog myself up to date.


My consciousness and Heart have expanded at an exponential rate! I've changed so much on the inside and I've finally got myself some good travelling shoes that should see me through as I walk along the road that leads to true happiness. It's an amazing, beautiful and humbling journey. One that has filled me with so much Joy and excitement. I've figured out my Life's purpose and I've discovered a deeper level of inner peace through meditation and prayer. I'm still ME! Nothings changed that drastically, however, I am more grounded and feel more connected to my Higher Self, the true me, the one that wants to live only in Grace and Love. Sometimes, I think I might go "POP"!!!


Thank you for taking the time to read this post :-) I have thought about writing sooo many times over the last few weeks and wanting desperately to share my thoughts and feelings and to converse with everybody kind enough to read my posts, it's no real excuse but time and Life just kept getting in the way!


Anyway, I'm back and I'm ready to write, I hope you like what you read :-p.


Lots of Love


Jenna :-)

Where There's Life :-)

I was woken this morning at 4.30am to the sound of neighbours arguing and their baby crying and I just wanted them to STOP! Don't they realise that I live in the house next door? That my bedroom is adjacent to theirs? That I had to get up in 3 hours??? And whilst my initial anger was motivated by my own selfishness regarding my life (it took half an hour or so for me to consider that their lives are troubled) it got me thinking about the impact our lives have on each other in ways we'll never know.


We are all precious, unique children of Creation blessed with Life. Think about it. What are the odds of you being here? What did it take to bring you into this world? Your family tree stretches back for millennia, every relative as far back as time goes had to meet that specific person at that specific time to create everyone you're related to. Your parents had to meet, make love, that egg, that sperm coming together at that unique and specific moment in time. Such a delicate combination of events, Divinely timed created YOU! 


And your birth was no accident! You are meant to be here, a thread in the rich and glorious tapestry of Life. Without your presence, something in the world would be different, a little less wonderful, a little less beautiful. Whether you realise it or not you have changed the world by simply being part of it. 


Do not underestimate how powerful having you here is. Like a stone in a pond your Life force ripples outwards touching other stones and ripples changing the face of the water. The soft waves nearest the stone as it splashes are small and tight and close to you, think of these ripples as your family and as they spread out and travel further, think of these as your friends, neighbours, colleagues, commuters on your train, the girl in the coffee shop, the company operative who answered your call, even the farmer who grows the oranges for the juice you buy! YOU touch the lives of millions of people everyday and more importantly YOU have the power to influence how other people feel. A harsh word, negative comment, smile or a hug can impact on another person in ways you might not realise. How wonderful does it feel when a child on the bus smiles at you? How horrible is it when someone you don't know pushes you out the way? 


We touch and we change each others lives every minute of the day.  So be mindful of what you think, what you say and how you act for YOU are an amazing source of energy that radiates for all to see. So choose your polarity wisely (positive or negative) because you are more powerful than you know.


I believe we are souls in human incarnation each with a purpose to bring Love and Light to the human experience. Our Lives are not meaningless, hopeless or devoid of purpose.


Life is NEVER hopeless :-)

Blog It!!! In the beginning...

Wow! So this is Blogging and this is my first Blog post? Blog Spot? Blog Bit? I don't know! What is the technical term for posting a nonsensical piece of rambling? I really am the world's worst technophobe, grrrr! I have NO idea what I'm doing suffice to say that it feels good, it feels right and perfectly timed.


I've spent most of today (lazily) putting this blog together and for me it's an achievement and I'm proud of it. There's something satisfying about doing something that you enjoy, knowing that you are on a new path, a new journey to somewhere unknown. I can't quite find adequate words to explain how I'm feeling right now or what's stirring inside me. 


About 3 weeks ago I met an incredible person who inspired me to reach down inside myself and dust off my "gift", an ability to understand how people are feeling, offer Loving, supportive and inspiring advice that for some reason seems to help other people (and me) in their daily lives.


I have nothing to sell, or anything to trade. I am my product! All I want to do is remind everyone that we are all worth something and that Happiness, Inner Peace and Love are in fact rights we were all born with and that are attainable, if you believe and trust in the content of your inner self and in the guidance of your heart. 


I often get this weird little tingle (it's the only word I can think of), a rush of energy that lives in my body cells that I often can't explain that tells me that there is more to living and Life itself than my limited 5 senses can experience and it's feeling/intuition that forms the basis of my Belief in the potential and goodness of mankind. My Belief is built on a Faith I have that I am but a drop in an Ocean that forms something bigger than me. I don't fully understand it and maybe I'm not to meant to because I'm human incarnate and I accept this, it gives me freedom to experience the richness of my experiences and the lessons I learn.

Life is full of lessons to learn, some easy, some hard, some painful and some are just fun. I've tried hard see the best in every situation I have been in - especially the ones that left me broken and often in tears on the bathroom floor sobbing "why?".

But each time I've gotten up, dusted myself off, laughed and gone positively back out into the world a little wiser but never jaded :-).

So here I am ready and willing to share my experiences and thoughts with the world!



Writing is not a chore to me, it's a pleasure that I enjoy and that I hope will be pleasurable to anyone who graciously decides to read my thoughts and share their own opinions on what I pen.


So to anyone reading these words right now "Hello" and welcome to my little corner of cyberspace. I hope you'll bear with me, get to know me, converse with me and come back and do it all again. 

Jenna :-)